Staying at home for three days and I never so desire to go back to hostel. Obviously the reason is because my dad couldn't sleep well and he didn't go to work. This sounds bad but I'm just gonna face my true feeling. Getting tired of being wake up for nothing, can't do my work properly because need to follow their always changing schedule according to my dad's mood, face all the negativity in the early morning, always listen to complaints about my siblings like I'm the root cause of their actions.
Yeah I know, I know they're my family, I know they raised me up, I know. I know. I've been growing up with all these ..... non sense? Stop please. Concealing my true feelings couldn't help anymore now. Yeah because I'm a grown up now. Like the Chinese saying, my wings getting harder, just try your best to accuse me. I'm getting used to it ady.
The question I afraid my colleagues ask about is, why don't you stay with your parents? Where should I start to answer them? I really appreciate Jinyi's effort in trying to tell me, that there's no family who don't fight or argue or hate each other.
But what if it's not about fighting? It's about feeling uncomfortable, getting yell or shout, always being forced to go or do sth I don't want to, feel being not respected (wah you wanna ask for respect in Asian Family? DAY DREAMING)...
Anyway, just wanna rant before I start crying in front of them. What makes me feel bad is, I love them. And I know they love each other too, but just.... they hurt us the most too.
Complicated kan?
P.S.
Wow can't believe I'm excited to see client's face tmr morning GG
Yeah I know, I know they're my family, I know they raised me up, I know. I know. I've been growing up with all these ..... non sense? Stop please. Concealing my true feelings couldn't help anymore now. Yeah because I'm a grown up now. Like the Chinese saying, my wings getting harder, just try your best to accuse me. I'm getting used to it ady.
The question I afraid my colleagues ask about is, why don't you stay with your parents? Where should I start to answer them? I really appreciate Jinyi's effort in trying to tell me, that there's no family who don't fight or argue or hate each other.
But what if it's not about fighting? It's about feeling uncomfortable, getting yell or shout, always being forced to go or do sth I don't want to, feel being not respected (wah you wanna ask for respect in Asian Family? DAY DREAMING)...
Anyway, just wanna rant before I start crying in front of them. What makes me feel bad is, I love them. And I know they love each other too, but just.... they hurt us the most too.
Complicated kan?
P.S.
Wow can't believe I'm excited to see client's face tmr morning GG